Nadine to James — I wouldn’t say I’m completely healed

INAMIN ni Nadine Lustre na nasa healing process pa rin siya sa nangyaring hiwalayan nila James Reid. Ibig sabihin, bagamat nakikita silang magkasama, talagang tapos na ang apat na taon nilang relasyon?

Sa isang interbyu kasi kay Nadine ay inamin niya ang pakikipaglaban  sa anxiety at depression gayundin sa trauma, at ang hindi pa paghilom ng sugat na dulot ng hiwalayan nila ni James Reid.

Sa interbyu ng Nylon Manila kay Nadine nasabi nitong,”Gusto ko noon, kapag tapos na, tapos, alam mo ‘yon? Or kapag may gusto akong mangyari, dapat mangyari na kaagad.

“But now, I’m allowing myself time to heal, to process things. Ganoon kasi ako before, like in the breakup, which really changed me and my mindset.

“Before, I wanted to get over it to not get hurt or overthink about it or feel bad. We tend to do that just because we don’t want to be affected.

“Again, I wouldn’t say I’m completely healed from that, like I’m still going through it. But this time, I’m allowing the time and I’m not rushing myself. It would take a long time, but I know I’ll get there,” mahabang pahayag niya.

Inamin ni Nadine na takot siyang maiwan o maabandona.

“I used to just completely shut off from people… no closure, no healing from past traumas, including friendships.

“I’ve always been afraid of being left behind. I’m afraid of being abandoned, because that’s how it feels when you’re in a relationship for a long time and you separate.

“It changes you a lot. It makes you feel like there was something wrong with you that’s why the person left you. Before, I would blame myself. I would think to myself, ‘May pagkukulang ako or may ginawa ako,’” lahad pa niya.

Sinabi pa ng aktres na hindi madaling kalimutan ang apat na taon nilang relasyon ni James.”But you know, I would say I’m slowly ascending from that trauma. You can’t put a timeline on it. It’ll just happen.

“Of course, I won’t stop myself from feeling sad. That’s also four years of being together, it’s not like I’m not going to cry.

“Before, I would stop myself from crying because I’d think it would only make me more sad. When you stop feeling that or going through the process, you’re also not allowing yourself from taking a step higher.

“If I don’t cry about it, it’s going to stay there, bottle up, and eventually, I might break down and get messed up even more.”

SHOWBIZ KONEK
ni Maricris Valdez Nicasio